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Spiritual Emergence
By Anonymous

My experience of spiritual emergence was the turning point in my life after two years of frustration, disappointment and dissatisfaction. Looking back now, I can see that I had been experiencing an angry kind of depression. I was trying to get my career off the ground and encountered knock backs at every step. Finally I came to the point of surrender and stopped looking for work. Instead, I focused on my own creativity and began to work for myself, at which point the negativity I had accumulated began to lift.

On the day of my spiritual emergence I remember being in the shower and having the sensation that all my disappointment and pain was being washed away. I was freed from the heavy emotions I had been carrying for so long everything seemed brighter and clearer.

After a magical day where everything flowed and was full of uplifting emotions and energizing connections with people, I returned home, where things took a strange turn. I was alone in my room, full of energy in a way that I had never experienced before. My senses went haywire in addition to the bright, magical color that everything had, I could smell all the different foods in my kitchen fridge! I was also hearing voices, which worried me, as that is something I associated with madness.

As I lay in my bed, unable to sleep, I entered a trance state. Waves of electrical, pulsating energy flowed through my body. It was also as if I could hear the sound of this electrical energy, which was the most pleasurable bodily experience I had ever before experienced in my life. Then, there was a pop, and I found my consciousness outside my body. I had joined all things in oneness, outside of time. There was nothing to see because it was just feeling but I knew and remembered the place.

For at least a month following this experience, it was as if I had magical superpowers. I am quite sure that although people around me were attracted to my energy, I was acting rather strangely in their eyes. During this time I kept my strange experience to myself and didn't tell friends or family what had happened. In time, my energy settled back down.

It is three years since my spiritual emergence and in that time my whole life has turned around. The profound experience I had absolutely required me to make changes in my life so that I could more authentically express my true self. These days, I also have the terminology and perspective that is required to understand what I went through that night. At the time, I had no knowledge of kunalini or out of body experiences. I had no reference point to explain what happened to me, and because of this, it was initially hard to research.

My point of understanding now is that spiritual emergence is not a rare phenomenon. However, life has shown me that in the case of some people, such as my boyfriend, the process fails. If the person is not in a supportive context, friends and family may be scared about what is happening at which point they may intervene. My boyfriend had a similar transcendent experience in which he felt his heart explode with love for all people. For three weeks he was filled with unconditional love, at which point his family could take no more and sent him to hospital. Now my boyfriend is 'bi polar' and medicated.

I made the animation 'Signs of Spiritual Awakening' based on my personal experience of spiritual emergence, versus my boyfriend's failed spiritual emergence. When I look at what happened to us, I do not see much difference in the initial experience. However, there's a huge difference in the implication of the process. Spiritual emergence leads to aligning with your true, authentic self, where spiritual emergence leads to control and losing your personal power.